I make lists. I make a lot of lists. I had several lists in December, but I had one overarching list that was compromised of all the mini-lists. The last item on the list was to think of new year's resolutions for myself. I did not have a hard time with this because I naturally set goals for myself (hence the lists) and because whenever I looked at my list I saw that item and thought about it for a while. My biggest problem is narrowing my list down, so that I might have at least a tiny measure of success this year. Advice: Don't make too many resolutions each year, just focus on a couple. Here are mine:
Read the Scriptures More.
Go to the Temple More.
Leave the guilt behind and lighten up.
So that's where I was at until the night before my birthday. We were over at my parents' house and we started playing "Rock Band"--this game for the x-box that has two guitarists, a singer, and a drummer (in Guitar Hero style). After about two hours of playing I noticed that I had a smile just plastered on my face. My face hurt because I was smiling so much. Contrary to the url address of my blog, I'm not a particularly smiley person, I'm usually the sourpuss of any group. So . . . my new most important goal for this year is to have FUN! I haven't had FUN in a long time. Don't get me wrong--overall I'm happy and I enjoy my life and I have a lot of personal fulfillment in my relationships, etc. but I don't have any fun, ever. Everyone around me has fun, but I can be in the same room with all the people having fun and be having no fun at all. This is a weird trait of mine. Anyway, for 2008 I want to be slapping my knee, rolling on the ground, laughing and snorting my way into a permanent stomach ache, full of fun.
So I'm on the search for new, fun activities. But if all else fails, I guess I have "Rock Band."
Two more resolutions: Make fewer lists. Get pregnant this year and have another little squishy.
